Z SoccerChic9: June 2005
Thursday, June 30, 2005
So, we have this unspoken process at our office - it involves the day before holidays. Now, this rule hasn't been set in stone, but it's one of those pretty much given - though not given enough to be a policy. Pretty much the day before a holiday weekend, we get off at about 2:00 the day before - which is like really awesome, considering we already have an extra day added to our weekend.

Well, I have yet to experience one of those blessings. The last holiday I ended up being one of the only people who stayed late - this holiday looked like I actually was going to get out of the office by 3:00. I was excited, shopping plans (yah, I'm a girl whose got her priorities straight:), and such - however, no such luck. I ended up working my lunch break - due to a client being booked during my lunch - and then never showing up during that time - that's okay though. Cept I didn't get out of the office till 6:30 due to me being stuck with a client crisis - and it had me spending almost three hours trying to calm them down and such. It was a little frustrating - but I watched a good movie tonight, had a coke, and just came in from a run and practicing my soccer. Awesome - now it's good movie, a great book, and some Brandy. And life rotates on it's axis again!

Enjoy your long weekend - drive safely and don't drink too much:)
Wednesday, June 29, 2005
And the reactions to this vary across the board. Anger, surprise, joy, whatnot - everyone has their opinion on it, and most people are happy to give it to you. My personal opinion, not that anyone asked, but I'm sharing cause it's my blog or something, is not much really. I'm not surprised, and sometimes it frusterates me how everyone acts like this is some horrible thing that is destroying are world, or they react in shock - like I can't believe this would happen. Why? I don't understand that emotion. Is it horrible, yes it has it's negitive effects that are going to be far reaching, not just in this generation, but in many to come.

Some of those negitive sideffects, even taking an outsider's view. Heath care costs are going to increase due to more diseases being spread, children are going to have to deal with the added presure of people around them teasing them about their two dads, future possiblities of people who don't perform gay marriages being abused, the law which has stood for so many years will not have to be changed and this will have serious ramafications,etc.

Our society is not ready for a step like this, in general. Just the other day I was standing at a light waiting for it to turn, and a lesbian couple walked across the road. I didn't do anything, maybe cause I see those things more often in downtown Hamiton, or maybe because that's the lifestyle they've choosen and I'm not going to randomly preach a sermon to them. However, many people around me got uncomfortable, a few people made negitive comments towards gay people and then got a nervous look on their face like someone would rain fire down on them for being so "close-minded". As I observed this, I thought to myself, how odd - these are random people who generally advocate people having their own rights and belive that everyone should be equal - yet a lesbian couple holding hands makes them nervous. Why, because deep down most people don't agree with it and are uncomfortable around it.

What makes me smile to myself and shake my head, is the fact that the church, in my circles at least seems to be so shocked by this. The horror that our country is corrupt enough to even consider legalizing gay marraiges. It appalls them. Now, I'm not saying it shouldn't, cause frankly, it is appalling and directly against God's plan for the way things should be. But honestly, did you think holding a sign, signing a petition, and making public you opinion on this matter was going to stop it? I am not saying those things are wrong, in fact I think it's great when hundreds of people show up to protect against gay marriages being legalized - it's good to show that there are people who disagree with it. Yet, these are the end-times. It is suppose to be getting worse, not better, we are suppose to be going downhill not up.

With all that in mind - it would of shocked and surprised me if this bill hadn't made it through and the legalization of gay marriages had been rejected. But, after all, that is jut my humble opinon - you are free to disagree.
Tuesday, June 28, 2005
Last week was the first week your weekly pay cheque was actually money that you are making. Up to this point, all the money you had been "making" was going straight back to the government in taxes. Just thought that would make you all happy. I've sworn to move to a different country:)
So, last week I recieved another raise from work, which was cool - cause I've worked at this office for seven weeks and I've already recieved two raises and a promotion. So yes, I'll take it and run:) On another note though, with promotions comes reponsibilty, who would of thought, and somedays, which is most days, I think I might go mental. Have you ever got to the point where you can't get stressed out anymore. It's like people can walk in my office and keep throwing stacks of work on the desk, and I'll just smile and laugh giddly - because I'm so far behind it doesn't matter anymore. People at work tell me I'm so happy and alive in the morning - I think it's because I'm losing my mind so I laugh, otherwise I might cry:)

But don't worry, my mental state has been in disrepair for a few years now - and I strive on stress even though it kills me.

On a happy note - I recieved an e-mail from a friend I hadn't heard from in forever cause he's been all over the place. So that was cool!! I also had a really good soccer practice tonight, and I denied myself from drinking coke today. So yes, it's a good day - cause it's the simple things really!
Friday, June 24, 2005
Right now, and I've done the "take five deep breaths" thing about 20 times - still it's not helping. I had a really stressful day at work today - just a lot of important meetings that I couldn't skip out on, and my work just did not get done. Everyone got let off at 4:00 and I stayed till 5:30 just to try manage some of my tasks. Then mis-communication took place tonight, not that it was anyone's fault - but it ends with me sitting here being extremely frusterated adn not able to do anything. I admit, I have temper problems and I will let my frusteration gather together and then I explode - or something like that. People who live with me just tend to avoid me until I cool off.

So yah that's your warning - stay away from me - cause I just might do something like eat your head or something. Grrrrumpkins.
Tuesday, June 21, 2005
Tonight, I hung out with a bunch of girls from my school for supper after work. I haven't laughed that hard in quite a while I must say. It's on nights like these that I kinda miss school, well almost:) But yah, a bunch of us girls got together at a really nice Irish Pub and had ourselves some food and drinks and a whole lot of fun. Cheryl is so like my second mother, I don't know how I would of survived school without her - she's awesome!! Like, I would still be trying to unlock my locker to this day - good times I tell you.

So, we had a huge meeting at work today, due to the fact that some people just up and left and all. It was rather amusing to say the least.

You know what, I drove around the corner today on my the on-ramp to the highway and there was a deer - it was odd. I must say that I do love driving up the mountain and down each day - it's my peaceful moments.

Anyhow, I am now officially rambling. Have yourself a good night kids!
Monday, June 20, 2005
I walked into my office, only to discover that they had bought me a brand new over 21 inch moniter - it's beautiful. I sit and stare at it for hours at a time, it truly captivates my attention:) Actually, it is quite beautiful, and I had a few admirers stop by to visit. On a more down note, the new girl that we hired to be our process server didn't show up today, another one of the new girls that started a week ago, is quitting, and the last girl who was suppose to start today didn't show. So yah, that first week must be pretty brutal or something:) It actually kinda makes me laugh, cause I want to say to them "you have no idea how good you have it, cause like people are actually training you all the time." But that is life.
Friday, June 17, 2005
I hate when you watch a movie, and you see yourself in the movie. It's like your life is playing before you on the screen, and not in a good way. Not the movie where your talents are glorified or your accomplishments are held up for all to see, rather it's your insides, the places you try to keep hidden, spilt out on the table and picked through. It's odd, I always scrunch up in a ball when this happens and hope that no one notices me in the corner of the couch there, that little lump, oh it's nothing. Anyhow, I just thought I would say that, because it happened to me tonight.
Tuesday, June 14, 2005
Last night at about 5:30 it poured rain in droves. I know, because at that time I was walking about five blocks through Hamilton. While all the other pedestrians cowered in doorways and bus shelters, I merily waltzed my way down the street, dress clothes soaking wet, hair streaming down my face, and any trace of make-up long gone or on the front of my shirt:) It was funny, because everyone looked at me like I had lost my mind - but for those five blocks I was 5 years old again, and I jumped in the puddles on the street corners while waiting for the stoplight to change. Life is good.

I have officially started watching season three of Gilmore Girls, and so far I must admit I am a little disapointed. The quality of the plot and the "killer" lines have seemed to diminished. I didn't laugh as much either, there were leads and possibilities to do great things, but it never seemed to go anywhere. Other then that, it brings back memories - good ones.

I tried Brandy for like the first time, at least I don't remember trying it before, and I liked it. Quite a bit thank you.

I recieved a rather large promotion at work yesterday. First off, a three dollar raise, which is nice when you want to go shopping:) Then, they want me to take Amber's position, she has worked there for like four years and is the center of the entire operation pretty much. So, huge shoes to fill, but also a great honor cause not just anyone can work in that kind of enviroment. Basically, I am leaving Plead and going to Mediate - now that most likely doesn't mean anything to you, but to me it's an awesome opportunity. I will be Mediate Unit Manager, have people working under me in my unit, and basically I can "run" it how I want - of course within Ellen's guidelines:) So yes, it's a jolly good day folks.

While walking to work today, a lady came up to me and was handing out phamphlets - I was going to say no, but I felt bad - so I took it. I got up to my office only to realize that I had just got a $20 gift certificate at Ikea. Whooohoo, that made my day, cause I love that place, and now I have money to spend there.

So yah, that's my life from like the last two days - it's all good, I am doing well, expanding my box, all that fun stuff.
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
I got my first speeding ticket tonight, not like I felt like ending my night with a speeding ticket, but I guess now is as good a time as any. After all, it's not like anyone really welcomes a speeding ticket ever, unless you are some sick person with a love of emptying one's pocket book and inflicting pain on yourself.

It was after soccer practice, I really wasn't paying any attention, and I was driving in Dundas - two things which definately equal something negitive - for Dundas is, after all, cop heaven. So yes, back to the grit of it all - I was going 86 in a 60 zone, and by that I mean just about two feet inside the 60 zone - thankfully. The police officer was a little on the grouchy side - and to top it all off, I didn't have my license on me. Yah, not exactly the way to make an officer's day.

At the end of the day, I am extremely blessed - he dropped the $70.70 fine for not having my license on me, dropped my ticket to 15 over, dropped the 3 points that I should of had - and I drove away with a $50.00 fine. I felt like giving him a great old hug - but I thought that might have some negitive side effects:)

On another note - I can't eat anymore - the very thought of food makes me think I am going to throw up. Odd.
Sunday, June 05, 2005
"Mary, graduating with honours", those were the words I heard as the piano and bag pipe played in the background, the crowd politely clapped, and a few random people screamed loudly. I didn't really hear the words, see the crowd, or notice the moments intertwined with this moment - rather I was lost in my own thought pattern, the one involving the long, somewhat hard road to get to this point. The trail leading up to this moment in which I was pronounced an official graduate of Mohawk College of Applied Arts and Technology. It was brief, my time at Mohawk, only a full year really - but I worked hard while here, dedicated a lot of my spare time to studying in order to achieve high academics and do well in the field I was entering. There where sacrifices, some of them where worth it by far, some of them made me better - others I might change if I had the chance too. But that is life, is it not, you win some, you lose some - but at the end of the day, they tend to all mix together and it's your perspective and where your hope and passion lies that makes or breaks you.

On an entirely differnet note - for all those of you who weren't at the Sola Scriptura conference - which is like all of you - you missed some good speakers!
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
I love my job.

That's all really. It's just nice getting up in the morning and looking forward to my day. It's awesome walking into the office and having no clue what the day is going to be like, cause one really never knows.

And yah, that is the extent of my intelligent comments tonight!!
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