Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Today I took off work early, for no real reason other then the fact that I was sure my brain was going to explode over my computer keyboard if I didn't take some time to think without distractions. I pulled out of work, and absently watched the rain create patterns on my wind shield - the perfect day for Chapters was of course the obvious conclusion. As I walked through the door of Chapters, I was greeted with that all familiar smell of books and coffee that makes me feel like I am walking through the front door of my home after being away for far to long. So many memories are wrapped up in Chapters for me - coffee with friends, dates, laughter, stealing whip cream off of someone's latte, burying one's self in a comfy chair with a book, and so forth.
I must say, I have discovered a hot drink that I actually like. For those of you who know me, this is a miracle. Nothing like a warm carmel macchiato to take away the chill in my bones on a day like today. I browsed random book sections, all while realizing that I have not stretched my brain for fun in way to long. A few poetry and house decorating magazines later, and my mind had emptied of it's clutter and I could truly think. I must say, there is bliss in being able to truly empty one's mind of the everyday clutter, and try to view life as a whole picture.
Is it weird that carrying around a Starbucks coffee cup while in work clothes and heels makes me feel like I belong in New York in one of those high glass buildings on the 114th floor? Maybe I should take up drinking coffee, just to feel powerful - which of course is something I would laugh at myself for. Nothing like living in a world full of delusions. For some people it's a nice car, or a house they really can't afford to impress their friends and the world - for me it's a cup of Starbucks coffee.
So I found a new mall - browsed through some furniture stores and dreamed of what I could do on a bigger budget. Then I did something new, because after all, one cannot have a crazy brain exploding day without going out on the edge and buying that perfect pair of shoes (that you'll return when your senses return to you) or something of the sort. For me it was Michael's craft store. I bought two rather large canvas' and I have decided to take up some abstract art. Now the abstract part because the world would stop in it's tracks and cry if I tried to paint a human face or something of the sorts. I then decided I should take up knitting, mainly because I was walking through the knitting isle when I decided I should do something different. I figure I can knit a scarf, I mean it's not like it's rocket science.....or is it. I have images of my grandmother knitting, while talking, while reading a book, while cooking, while conquering the world with her red cape and "Super Grandmother" jump suit. I mean, if she can do all that at once, surely I can knit a scarf (and I am not sure why I heard collective laughter when I wrote that last line:)
And that my friends is what a successful break from work does - clears your brain, while giving you energy for the tough choices you need to make.
I must say, I have discovered a hot drink that I actually like. For those of you who know me, this is a miracle. Nothing like a warm carmel macchiato to take away the chill in my bones on a day like today. I browsed random book sections, all while realizing that I have not stretched my brain for fun in way to long. A few poetry and house decorating magazines later, and my mind had emptied of it's clutter and I could truly think. I must say, there is bliss in being able to truly empty one's mind of the everyday clutter, and try to view life as a whole picture.
Is it weird that carrying around a Starbucks coffee cup while in work clothes and heels makes me feel like I belong in New York in one of those high glass buildings on the 114th floor? Maybe I should take up drinking coffee, just to feel powerful - which of course is something I would laugh at myself for. Nothing like living in a world full of delusions. For some people it's a nice car, or a house they really can't afford to impress their friends and the world - for me it's a cup of Starbucks coffee.
So I found a new mall - browsed through some furniture stores and dreamed of what I could do on a bigger budget. Then I did something new, because after all, one cannot have a crazy brain exploding day without going out on the edge and buying that perfect pair of shoes (that you'll return when your senses return to you) or something of the sort. For me it was Michael's craft store. I bought two rather large canvas' and I have decided to take up some abstract art. Now the abstract part because the world would stop in it's tracks and cry if I tried to paint a human face or something of the sorts. I then decided I should take up knitting, mainly because I was walking through the knitting isle when I decided I should do something different. I figure I can knit a scarf, I mean it's not like it's rocket science.....or is it. I have images of my grandmother knitting, while talking, while reading a book, while cooking, while conquering the world with her red cape and "Super Grandmother" jump suit. I mean, if she can do all that at once, surely I can knit a scarf (and I am not sure why I heard collective laughter when I wrote that last line:)
And that my friends is what a successful break from work does - clears your brain, while giving you energy for the tough choices you need to make.
Labels: Ramblings